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i've been stressing with my new job.
i never did any negotiation with foreigner.
and this time my occupation dsfis a marketing of nation oil
so i must make negotiations and quotations.

i feel uncomfortable by now,
seems i dont wanna do this job anymore.
1#, it waste so much time and i really get tired.
it's much more harder than takin care my own small bussiness
of motorcycle workshop.

but in this bleak time,
i still feel amused by my boy friend's support.
he's kinda philosopher sometimes.
and i'm so grateful that i found a right person in my life.
he is the one who always be a part of me.

by the way, yesterday my friend told me about his acquaintance
got hiv positive.
it just reflect on myself ,my life, directly when he told me the story.
coz i also was with so many men.
this get me so horrible for a while.
but i know i am saved. coz i use condom everytime
except with my recent boyfriend.
so i asked my friend if that person used sheath protection (condom)?
he said no!

OMG! what a stupid person he is!
we know that in this queer life,
we switch hundred times our bed's partner.
for me, no matter what you are! what hot your flesh body are!
i would never let my dick get in to our opposite's ass
without condom. and more impossible is someone outside there
get his dick penetrate my ass without condom. i won't let them.

yes i desire for sex so much.
but i won't be a blind stupid person who just let
my passion get me into everything.

coz for me, sex or everything about sex.
not just your ass and dick, but including your lips,
hand, leg, nips, and every little part of your body
and most of all, is your soul(heart and mind).

i prefer to call it "Art of Ecstasy".
coz in sex, we directly or indirectly involving
our heart, our sensation, and our potency(power or body)
so this 3 things:
happiness(heart), sensation(feeling / liking / loving) and
feel we full of energy (power/potency)
is the important thing we must understand.

when i play sex with so many partner,
what i want is the one who completely understand about himself first.
and then he must understand about this Art of ecstasy,
no matter your size is.

and my place, Bandung city, is a place where so many gays exist here.
what i still remember till now, i saw some persons that
really really got very small dick when it's soften
(but has average size when it's aroused.
the average of our southeast asian size is 4.7" - 5"),

the one which was my bed partner when i was teenager, he is so cool.
he understands himself, he comfortable with his size,
and he understands how to use his small dick!

i was so very very enjoy our bed time together
for 2 days in the weekend.
so i tell you for sure, size doesn't really a big deal.
too big is not very well.
it just gives your ass more scratching than normal size,
like my bf did to me.
hahahhaha he's got 6.9" dick
meanwhile i just got mine 6.2" only